About Me

I am almost 27, a petite female, and was diagnosed with ADD combined type mild to moderate at age 12. Contrary to what people may believe this is not a condition that people outgrow. If they do outgrow it, it was likely a misdiagnosis in the first place. I currently up until this point have never been on medication for the ADD.

I have had lots of help from my parents in providing structure to my life at home and helped me keep on track with school and home work and did courses to learn to study effectively. My brother has also been a big help as he seems to understand me better then I do myself sometimes and he often surprises me with his wisdom and bringing be back into perspective.

My brain doesn’t know how to be quiet there are always constant chatter or thoughts that are going in my head and it rarely ever shuts up, it is a lot like background noise that is always there. This chatter can definitely cause me problems getting to sleep at night. I have a terrible short term memory for remembering where I put things or things that people said or things I did just moments ago unless I write things down. Hence I am a compulsive note taker and love sticky notes. I however have an amazing long term memory. I can hyperfocus on certain things I am super interested in where no one can distract me from that thing however I find I cant really control it. It just happens or it doesn’t. I often interrupt people or feel like I want to I try very hard to control this. I am a packrat and my house is usually a mess and the pain problem is papers. I can find housework extremely difficult at times because it is just so boring.

I am in general a pretty bouncy person but can get pretty shy or feel a bit awkward in certain situations and easily hurt or discouraged, I can be quite emotionally sensitive. I believe I also suffer from anxiety and possibly minor depression at some points. I am very opinionated and often end up in many debates most of which I do not ever seem to win because I am not really that good at debating. I am a very creative person. I love to draw, take pictures, work with clay and love to do bookbinding making hand made blank books. I have started journaling in my books again in the last couple of years. I love animals especially my four cats and love horses as well, though I haven’t ridden for awhile I rode and jumped horses for approximately 14 years before being the position I am currently of not having a horse to ride. I hope this wont last forever. I love ancient cultures and places and things and different languages and texts. I love to mess around in my garden growing herbs and miniature roses and hope to try some actual food plants this coming year. I also like to sew though I am still learning. I love learning new things in general. I am trying to get back into running, this time trying barefoot/minimalist running, as exercise is good for focus. I love things that are shiny or sparkly; some family members call me a magpie because of it. I am a dreamer and can sometimes move from passion to passion.

I have been married to the sweetest most wonderful, fun, encouraging and tolerant man for the last 6 years. Without him I am sure I would be in much worse of a state. He is willing to let me learn more about myself and to learn with me.

I am currently looking for work and am hoping something much less stressful that allows me to use my skills and creativity to their full potential without being overly bored and distracted. I am looking for something that will make me happy and not stressed out all the time like my last job. The question is what do I want to do job wise that I will be good at. This is a question I have never in my life had an answer to. I really honestly do not know what I would like to do. The work world is seemingly what threw my coping skills with ADD that I previously had out the window. It seems a job with lack of structure plus high anxiety plus lack of enforced structure at home and no school structure equals I have no clue how to cope with all my ADD issues and probably other issues as well that are arising. I am taking this time while looking for work to learn more things about my ADD and hope to cope with it. I am hoping this will help people understand a little bit what it is like to be me.

I will be updating with how my quest goes and some background information and other interesting bits and pieces I find along the way.